Write about your strongest memory of heart-pounding belly-twisting nervousness: what caused the adrenaline? Was it justified? How did you respond?

wow, i’m so far away from that feeling.  because when you have one that is sooooo huge, the one’s you are “supposed” to have, you just don’t anymore.  like that car that just turned lanes right into us and forced us onto the shoulder this evening.  it didn’t even barely give rise to an extra heartbeat or two.  but, no, the last time was when i was waiting for the police to come and get me, actually.  i knew they were coming even though there was no reason, really, for me to think they were.  i knew they were.

was it justified?  actually, no.  because now that i know what happens, it was much worse in my head than in reality.

how did you respond?  i guess i still am, so the ripple affect of that experience is quite profound, but i also think that it helps me like in the situation this evening driving because i was able to not overreact.

silver linings.Image

coffee, french pressed

the morning comes when the sun appears again
like it does, like it must.
It does not care
if I have
it only comes
because that’s what is.
Morning, that time when the light shows
what is real, what is not, what you made up in your head,
Morning comes to connect you with everything inside your head that you can now choose
in the light of everything that was only potential only a thought
only a dream or perhaps even a nightmare
the experience of the day that
will, in turn, greet the
night and all
potential to
create once again a morning
to expose the creation of the universe.
breathe deeply and enjoy thoroughly your cup of coffee.
the quality of your experience even on the simplest routines brings the
truth with which to press your experience into
activation for dynamic choices that
change the monotony of


safe ∞ style (a collaborative entry)

Inspire me … Word Press’ external inspirator gave me this:

A picture is worth 1000 words. This safe has been through a lot. Tell its story.

Image credit: “safe” – © 2007 Paul Keller – made available under Attribution 2.0 Generic

Although, Niki has a 500 word limit, so, in 500 words or less … inspired by

snorts Niki V.
seriously, u really think URsafe?
playing it safe maybe, but “safe”?  the tentative
steps of our reality reveals the insecurity
of our polarity, the timing of which
is just so slow which leaves
me to wonder if u could
ever truly ground
enough 2

taking its
laborious journey
of struggle knowing that u
promised urself u would never struggle
like THAT again …. and yet
we do it until we don’t
and then u have 2
consider that
the polarity
of the
have shifted
with those of the mother ship.

The truth is, when you start asking questions like, “why AM I angry?”  and you start beginning to actually answering a question like that, you enter into a game of emotions.  Games played when you were a child to deal with the emotions of those around you who could project that which angered them on you because they could.

The child, not knowing that mom was just “losing her mind” because of something that had NOTHING to do with you, but how COULD you possibly know that with how they were acting, voicing, and being? 

So, when you realize that your anger stems from ancestral or projected realities, what is in this moment.  How critical is “the moment” to have a peaceful reality?  And, how do you create it for yourself? 

If you can do that, time+space+vibration combines with arbitrary randomness of the reality that exists in the now for what purpose?  something that has nothing to do with you, unless you KNOW string theory, chaos theory, oneness theory, and that integrating two more senses isn’t that big of a deal is it?  which two do you need to integrate more right now?

sight?  sound?  there’s the #inet4that, right?

sound?  lol, big brother.

taste?  touch?  hmmmm, yeah, those two.  sigh.  can’t ever forget those two most important.  maybe i’ll focus on that here.  and, just 2 mess with everyone’s mind a little bit more, we all like a little friendly competition, don’t we, maybe I can get Qoco to play with me here.  Qoco is played by The First Husband.  so, lots of history, inside jokes, and hopefully love beyond the divorce to honor the people we are and our daughter.


wary of reality


such as it appears to be,
the only course of action is fearlessness.
to be in the moment requires
clarity to discern between what is fear and what is lethargy.
wariness is a tool of lethargy that only
the ego can conquer through sheer will of the self.
fear is a tool of “god” that invites us to dare
to be “god” if only for your own existence.
creating is the efficient choice for one who is wary of reality.

Untitled 7 (potential)

Untitled 7 (potential)


Because reality strikes at the surface of conscience

to perceive its transformation the moment it hits

is a moment of truth empowering clarity

of the soul’s true purpose and goal.

Interacting on the surface of the

nano texture that weaves into

the vibration of existence

that spirals to engage

every breath, with

thoughts and





emanating from

the infinity of form

which shapes the will

and agitates the potential

to realize the truth recognized

while buried in the rubble and mess

of the subconscious, reality happened as

‘someone’ created it now and in this

moment to be a perfect collection

of cosmic energy to create

the unity of the self for

the ‘someone’ who

all in all know

the illusion




if love

is going

2 grow out

of this moment

or if it is a distraction

from the only thing real

that infinity brings 2 u purely

when recognized, reality is either

accepted or rejected instantly as

something desirable to the

potential existence of u


my first Writing of 2k13
7:06am 17 jan 2k13