simple thoughts presented
with a structure
(maybe, just maybe).
simple thoughts presented
with a structure
(maybe, just maybe).
happy st. patty’s day
if u celebrate such frivolity or profundity, whichever it may be for you.
for me, its my mom’s birthday.
i would say “mum” because that always seems to sound better when spoken,
yet when written, it just doesn’t look right. “Mom” it is. happy birthday mom.
this will be the only evidence i wish her any happiness on her birthday because,
truth be told, idc if my mother is happy on her birthday.
if she’s not, its her fault, just like if i was not happy on my birthday it would be my fault.
my mom wouldn’t want me to really think anything different.
and she’s right.
so, happy birthday mom, if you ever find this greeting on a blog that i
so randomly administer there’s no one here to actually read this
birthday greeting, so if you do happen to stumble upon it, and realize that yes,
i even use social media to do what i wouldn’t really want to actually
do in real life, celebrate your birthday with you, i do create a part of me that realizes and tries
to honor the potential in you even when you fail so miserably at being a human being
that i would never actually wish you a happy birthday unless you were randomly
at the restaurant when we break out in song and i knew you not at all.
anywhere near me
its hell, i tell you,
2 be around me
so i’m told all the time.
reason 101 for cancelling
“Empowered choices make the best decisions,” we all agree on that. Right? But, which choice are we talking about?
Empowered choices sometimes make the “bestest” decisions possible in the course of a lifetime. Usually we call those “learning experiences” or mistakes, and because IF we were in an empowered position when we made them, well, we probably learned from that choice and the consequences it brought and we are better humans for it. Lessons learned through experience are most powerful, we all know that too, right?
Empowered choices make the epic decisions. Indeed, this is where we make choices as individuals that we may not otherwise make for ourselves, yet the impact of that decision on the world around us empowers everyone in that world to do better.
The right to choose is just such a choice. I do not agree with abortions, i think they are wrong, stupid and wtf did you do going to get yourself pregnant? Sometimes, choices were an uninspired, unempowered choice; sometimes, it wasn’t a choice at all, it was an oops, sometimes an “oh, shit, i need to sleep with this dude to get out of here and leave me alone,” sometimes its “i’m just too young and stupid to not get drunk at that frat party and, oh well, which guy was it?” sometimes its tragic like a rape, and sometimes, children have parents who use abortion as birth control, just because that’s all they know because that’s all they’ve been taught. All of these decision-makers are doing their “bestest,” which isn’t at a level of acceptability of mindfulness in my home, yet for so many others, this is just normal, it is not a crime.
We here sitting pretty our nice world where we think about things, where we don’t have that unfortunate set of circumstances to lead us down this road to an unwanted pregnancy can say: No, YOU cannot have the power to choose, I choose for you. What does that solve, the problem? No, it creates all the unwanted children we have today already and then some. The truth is, WE have the choice, whether they take it away or not, WE can have an abortion at anytime, WE always could, OUR doctors took care of such things for US.
The historic truth we do know is this, when abortion was illegal women died getting them. They died trying to get them. They died trying to live a life they couldn’t lead because they could not get them. Women died. All the time. Which choice again? Right to life?
So, anyone who says they are against the right to choose but does not attend every single school board meeting and city council meeting and direct the policy, mindset and moral compass and services for their community, has no right to say someone else doesn’t have the right to choose. You are neither trying to prevent pregnancies or empower a better life for those who are the ones usually taking the safe road to save their own lives in their circumstances, the bestest they know how. That’s what we do for them, EPICALLY. When we fail on the front end, we need to protect them on the backend. We are as strong as our weakest link and we cannot be shortsighted in our vision by our our personal beliefs and egos.
Because as a society, we choose for WOMEN, who are alive today, to LIVE. That is our first priority. Anything else is illogical, thus, not debatable.
Mostly, people power tripping over their beliefs, and personal opinions as to how much they can control someone else’s choices, they don’t really care really about the children, that is certain. Not really care, to the point where they are empowered to choose to create a different choice for anyone to experience here.
I will debate this issue with anyone who is fighting against state-directed abortions in nation-states such as India and China where wholesale aborting of girl babies is equal to genocide at the level it is happening. =)
I don’t know what “Bloggers” do, I know what I do, and I do it for my reasons — others have their ideas as to what those are, yet those people do not know me.
I use blogs to organize thoughts, ideas, pieces of me that are just a part of me, and since I have always “blogged” and used the internet and most of its incarnations for doing just that, this is just what I do. I sometimes just create a blog and write out an idea, sometimes getting back to it eventually, and sometimes leaving it for others may stumble along it and do the idea up righteously. Good luck following along.
So, I “closed” my NSFW NikIVTumblingAroundTumblr blog (stopping at 666 pages seemed right for this project), and I will now spend the next couple of months augmenting and editing it to be in its final form. I grew quite fond of my first “porn” blog site, with a mix in my feed that was always pushing all my favorite buttons, art, science, tech, space, peace, activism, sexy.
When Tumblr first came on the scene, i was like WHOA!!!! I signed up right away with an even more NSFW concept yet I found that I wasn’t ready to go down that path yet and that project still waits for me. When my teenage daughter said she was on Tumblr (FanDom Central!), I knew I had to jump into the mix somehow. I created NikiVTumblingAround and several other “interest” blogs on Tumblr, curated and found a feed with a happy medium to form a porn site I actually think I would enjoy randomly finding on the internet. That I curated a porn site would shock most of the people I actually know in real life, well, now that I think about it, maybe not anymore.
I have used my experience with this blog to inform my activism off-line as well as develop several other concepts relating to my perpetual online activism. My NSFW “URDaughtersFirstPortSite” is a blog that I’m developing an off-line component to introduce to my local community as more young men and ladies get into the naked selfie / sex video normalcy of this new reality. We already had one issue in our small community of this “tumblrworld mindset” where a cos-play online game brought in a young lady who got caught up way over her head, parents had no idea any of this world even existed, let alone that their daughter was involved.
Coming out of NikiVTumbingAround directly, are two blogs: (1) a password protected, Cocktale Hour, which will be even more intimate writings based on images that i enjoy, so a bit more comprehensive than my NSFW URpleasURe blog here on WordPress; and (2) Curing Cosmic Boredom, a considerably less racy than NikiVTumblingAround with a very specific intent of “looking 4 love on tumblr dot com.” While there are many parts of porn on the internet I just cannot support on General Principle, I find that most people engage in those realities as a form of stimulation because nothing in their lives are giving any real meaning, boredom basically. I think that’s why I include that reality now, unashamed and “part of the problem” to bring about a solution to the underlying causes.
Ok, I think I got all that straight, my NSFW blogospheric reality nutshell. And no, i’m not a cam girl. And no, I do not have a KIK account. And, no, i don’t blog for money (as strange as that may seem these days). And, no, unless you are my cosmic consort, you may not text me.
i think about blogs i want to create just to share an idea of a moment that i would never really take the actual time to make it a truthality in my lifetime.
I actually believed, based on the rhetoric and positions of the Republicans and Democrats in the Senate, that the Keystone XL actually had a chance of being stopped there, in the Senate. There were, from my perspective — from what I read on the variety of streams of information I receive everyday — a false sense that at least three Republican Senators, just listening to their positions on environmental issues in general, who may have opposed that idiotic pipeline (and it is, at this point, idiotic).
Then to see that there were some Democrat Senators that voted for it too … WTF?! I really didn’t see that coming at all, especially when they “KNEW” the President would veto it (if he actually does do that, and now I have to hold the jury out until it actually happens). How are we supposed to trust these people?
I know money is great and everything, yet, this is beyond any reasonable good judgment of any kind. I’m so lost and confused on this planet right now, I am having serious thoughts on why I bother to try to figure this out. Maybe I should just stop. Yet if I did that, I’d have no reason to blog and where’s the fun in a life without blogging? Maybe there is no solution.
Which leads me to this thought, the creation of a world within one’s own narration is so easy to manipulate and control now, how are we ever going to reconcile the extreme vision of the world being held by our “leaders” with the actual truth of life on earth? I can spend an entire life never knowing how stupid the world actually is, however, i think i would miss the comedy and drama of other people’s version of the script that just is so deviant from the human narration for sustainable existence on this planet. Its just when that deviance impacts something as important as the source that gives us all life: mother earth.
Bring back sanity.